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But not really. I just needed to announce that IT IS SNOWING!!!!!
December 2nd, 2009
for the first time at collegeOctober 24th, 2009
...since I last posted. I started a new blog, at wordpress.com. I love LJ, don't get me wrong. I just felt like this journal had a lot of me as a venting high schooler, and I wanted somethi
sleepySeptember 26th, 2009
So I just read that Jenna Fischer from The Office (pretty much my favorite TV actress EVER), went to my roommate's high school. So. Jealous!
David Hasselholf is the only person who went to my high school, and he didn't even graduate. Lame.
David Hasselholf is the only person who went to my high school, and he didn't even graduate. Lame.
August 30th, 2009
So as the first real weekend of college ends, I have to say that it's getting a little better. I'm keeping busy with homework, classes, ensembles, and a bunch of lessons, so the only times I feel kind of lonely are at night.
Today I did laundry for a few hours and chatted with some people about the stupid coin system and their crazy roommates. I also decided to join the choir for a church on campus that's looking for an alto section leader, and if I get the position, I'd get paid! I think it's a worthwhile way to spend my Sunday, and it could be nice to be connected to the community. I haven't really been religious (haven't actually gone to church officially in years), but I think this could be good for me. Even though it's a Methodist church and I'm Lutheran, I really liked the service. The choir is fun, the pastor is really cool, and they're really welcoming to the DPU students. This was the student welcome service, and a bunch of adorable old ladies baked homemade cookies and put them in bags for all of us. It was really, really nice and a community I'd like to be a part of, especially when I feel kind of lonely.
I feel like even though I haven't really met anyone outside the music department, that's okay. Because they're really who I'm going to see for the next 4 years anyway. I spent this evening alone, watching TV, doing homework, etc, and I feel like that's okay. Everyone needs downtime, right? I'm not a loser for just wanting to chill while my roommate's away for the day for volleyball?
Last night there was a dance that I decided not to go to, and I'm glad. Instead, one of my friends worked on diction and theory homework and watched The Office in my dorm room, and we had a really fun time. I was especially glad when I saw a few people leading their very drunk friend up the steps of my residence hall at midnight when I walked my friend out. I just don't want to be a part of that. I have no desire to drink or be a crazy party fiend. My career and my voice mean too much to me to blow it like that. I don't understand how losing control of yourself and looking like an idiot is fun.
On another note, I got Skype, so my mom and I talked today on the webcam! I even got to talk with my grandma, who's shocked by the technology of it all, and see my dog, who I miss SO much. I'm going to talk to dad when he gets home, too. And my mom's coming down next weekend to visit me, so it's only 5 more days until I see her! It's hard to think that I'll be here for 4 years, but if I think of it in little incriments- 5 days until mom, 20 until parents weekend, 47 until fall break- it makes it easier to handle.
I'm thinking of going home for winter term. Everyone says the campus is dead and boring, and you only take one class. So instead, I want to get an internship somewhere near home, so I can commute and not have to pay room and board and still get college credit for my 30-45 hours per week of work for whatever company takes me on.
I think maybe I can do this, even if the transition is a slow process.
Today I did laundry for a few hours and chatted with some people about the stupid coin system and their crazy roommates. I also decided to join the choir for a church on campus that's looking for an alto section leader, and if I get the position, I'd get paid! I think it's a worthwhile way to spend my Sunday, and it could be nice to be connected to the community. I haven't really been religious (haven't actually gone to church officially in years), but I think this could be good for me. Even though it's a Methodist church and I'm Lutheran, I really liked the service. The choir is fun, the pastor is really cool, and they're really welcoming to the DPU students. This was the student welcome service, and a bunch of adorable old ladies baked homemade cookies and put them in bags for all of us. It was really, really nice and a community I'd like to be a part of, especially when I feel kind of lonely.
I feel like even though I haven't really met anyone outside the music department, that's okay. Because they're really who I'm going to see for the next 4 years anyway. I spent this evening alone, watching TV, doing homework, etc, and I feel like that's okay. Everyone needs downtime, right? I'm not a loser for just wanting to chill while my roommate's away for the day for volleyball?
Last night there was a dance that I decided not to go to, and I'm glad. Instead, one of my friends worked on diction and theory homework and watched The Office in my dorm room, and we had a really fun time. I was especially glad when I saw a few people leading their very drunk friend up the steps of my residence hall at midnight when I walked my friend out. I just don't want to be a part of that. I have no desire to drink or be a crazy party fiend. My career and my voice mean too much to me to blow it like that. I don't understand how losing control of yourself and looking like an idiot is fun.
On another note, I got Skype, so my mom and I talked today on the webcam! I even got to talk with my grandma, who's shocked by the technology of it all, and see my dog, who I miss SO much. I'm going to talk to dad when he gets home, too. And my mom's coming down next weekend to visit me, so it's only 5 more days until I see her! It's hard to think that I'll be here for 4 years, but if I think of it in little incriments- 5 days until mom, 20 until parents weekend, 47 until fall break- it makes it easier to handle.
I'm thinking of going home for winter term. Everyone says the campus is dead and boring, and you only take one class. So instead, I want to get an internship somewhere near home, so I can commute and not have to pay room and board and still get college credit for my 30-45 hours per week of work for whatever company takes me on.
I think maybe I can do this, even if the transition is a slow process.
contentAugust 27th, 2009
So I finished my first college classes yesterday and today, and so far they're going well. I have a lot of reading to do and a TON of practicing, but other than that, I'm pretty on top of things.
It's getting better gradually to be here, but I'm always better when I'm in class or with my mentor group. I'm just really not good at making new friends because I'm just naturally shy, and people sometimes perceive that as being stuck up, which is not at all what I mean. I'm just awful at starting conversations and meeting new people. So during the day when I'm in class, I'm fine, but at times like now, when I have all evening to just sit in my room, I really miss my mom and my dog and my friends from home.
I don't know why, but I just feel like everyone else already has a ton of friends and a group and is doing fine, and I'm the only one who doesn't have any friends outside the music department and just feels awkward and lonely most of the time. I know everyone says you get used to college eventually, but I feel like everyone else is already traveling in these groups of friends and I'm always walking around campus alone.
I guess I'll go get some homework done. Other than that, I'll probably end up watching The Office on DVD or something until bed, and just hope tomorrow goes better.
It's getting better gradually to be here, but I'm always better when I'm in class or with my mentor group. I'm just really not good at making new friends because I'm just naturally shy, and people sometimes perceive that as being stuck up, which is not at all what I mean. I'm just awful at starting conversations and meeting new people. So during the day when I'm in class, I'm fine, but at times like now, when I have all evening to just sit in my room, I really miss my mom and my dog and my friends from home.
I don't know why, but I just feel like everyone else already has a ton of friends and a group and is doing fine, and I'm the only one who doesn't have any friends outside the music department and just feels awkward and lonely most of the time. I know everyone says you get used to college eventually, but I feel like everyone else is already traveling in these groups of friends and I'm always walking around campus alone.
I guess I'll go get some homework done. Other than that, I'll probably end up watching The Office on DVD or something until bed, and just hope tomorrow goes better.
lonelyAugust 25th, 2009
So I moved into school on Saturday, and we start classes tomorrow.
So far, I've had a lot of fun with my mentor group, who are the other 14 people in my seminar and all are in school of music with me. And I love the school, so eventually I think I'll have a really good time. Right now, though, it's all kind of weird. I'm alone in my dorm a lot because I have down time, and I don't really know anyone, so it's pretty awkward. The first night was especially hard, but it's getting better. I'm just worried that I won't make friends, because I feel like already, everyone on my floor is hanging out with people and having fun, and I'm in my room on my computer.
I can't wait for tomorrow, because I feel like once classes start, I'll be busy and won't have time to be lonely or bored. I'll also make more friends, because I'll see more people and join activities and things like that. I'm hoping that I meet people in the classes during midday that I can eat lunch with, because I went alone yesterday and today and it was SUPER awkward. It felt like high school all over again, which is not what I want to repeat.
So I'm hoping it starts to get better and more exciting. I know I'll be fine once I have band and choir to distract me, so I can't wait for those audition results.
So far, I've had a lot of fun with my mentor group, who are the other 14 people in my seminar and all are in school of music with me. And I love the school, so eventually I think I'll have a really good time. Right now, though, it's all kind of weird. I'm alone in my dorm a lot because I have down time, and I don't really know anyone, so it's pretty awkward. The first night was especially hard, but it's getting better. I'm just worried that I won't make friends, because I feel like already, everyone on my floor is hanging out with people and having fun, and I'm in my room on my computer.
I can't wait for tomorrow, because I feel like once classes start, I'll be busy and won't have time to be lonely or bored. I'll also make more friends, because I'll see more people and join activities and things like that. I'm hoping that I meet people in the classes during midday that I can eat lunch with, because I went alone yesterday and today and it was SUPER awkward. It felt like high school all over again, which is not what I want to repeat.
So I'm hoping it starts to get better and more exciting. I know I'll be fine once I have band and choir to distract me, so I can't wait for those audition results.
August 20th, 2009
Well, I made it. Summer's over, and tomorrow I'll drive the 3 hours to Indiana. We're staying in a hotel overnight, then I move into my dorm at DePauw on Saturday morning.
A lot of my friends have left and it all feels so surreal- that we'll all be updating facebook about school and have no idea what anyone else is talking about. I'm going to miss my house, my parents, my dog, my barn, my choir and band...
I know that this is a fresh start for me. A way to make the first impression that I've always wanted to make, and that is going to be good. But I'm still worried- what if my roommate doesn't like me, or I don't make a lot of friends, or worst of all, what if I get there and take all of these music classes and I don't like it as much as I thought I would. All I could ever imagine doing with my life is music, but what if I'm bored by the classes? I have nothing else I'd even want to do but perform.
Right now, I'm going to try and stop worrying, get a good night's sleep, and try to enjoy this time of my life, because it will never come again.
Goodbye, Chicago, Hello, Greencastle.
A lot of my friends have left and it all feels so surreal- that we'll all be updating facebook about school and have no idea what anyone else is talking about. I'm going to miss my house, my parents, my dog, my barn, my choir and band...
I know that this is a fresh start for me. A way to make the first impression that I've always wanted to make, and that is going to be good. But I'm still worried- what if my roommate doesn't like me, or I don't make a lot of friends, or worst of all, what if I get there and take all of these music classes and I don't like it as much as I thought I would. All I could ever imagine doing with my life is music, but what if I'm bored by the classes? I have nothing else I'd even want to do but perform.
Right now, I'm going to try and stop worrying, get a good night's sleep, and try to enjoy this time of my life, because it will never come again.
Goodbye, Chicago, Hello, Greencastle.
indescribableAugust 2nd, 2009
So I leave for college three weeks from yesterday.
And I am freaking out.
I know that once I get there it will probably be fine, but the thought of going somewhere 3 hours away with no way home for months on end is kind of terrifying, especially since I only know a few people who I met through facebook and hung out with downtown one afternoon, but I don't have classes with them.
I got my schedule, which is literally ALL music classes. It feels so weird that studying for me doesn't mean memorizing dates or learning biology or reading novels. Now, it's chord progressions, Chekov, and English Diction for Singers. I'm taking Acting I as an elective, and I'm kind of nervous. As much as musical theatre is my passion, I've never been into straight acting. I don't think I'm very good at it without my voice to hide behind, and this class is mostly reading plays and learning straight acting methods. I'm worried that I won't be interested or I won't be any good, and mostly I'm worried that I'll hate it and realize that I don't want to be an actor. And that's the scariest thing of all- I was so sure that I knew what I wanted to do, but what if I get to this acting class and hate it? I've thought about it, I have. But I can't picture myself doing anything but singing on stage. I don't want to teach, I don't want to direct. I want to perform. But how can I be a Broadway actress who...doesn't like to JUST ACT?
I feel like this is a chance for me to start over, to make a better first impression. In high school no one knew I existed, and if they did, I was just the band geek with the glasses (no matter how cliche, it was my life). Since I didn't have room in my schedule for choir until junior year, no one knew I sang, and those that I told probably didn't believe me. At the end of senior year I finally had the chance to sing solo and prove myself, but still, I never made a huge impression (except for on my teachers, which was great, but it didn't help to make friends). I made some of my greatest friends during senior year, and I feel like my first years of high school were wasted time where I felt like a loser.
I want this to be different. I want to walk up to people in the cafeteria and say, "Hi, I'm Kari, can I sit with you guys?" without feeling like my heart is going to beat out of my chest. People will know I'm a singer because it's my major, and they have to believe me because I auditioned for it. I want to be more forward. I want to make more friends sooner and not waste time waiting for someone to talk to me.
There's a summer send off party tomorrow night at an alumni's house, a different one for every area. I'm going in the hopes that I meet SOMEONE in each of my classes, and I'm forcing myself to start a conversation and not wait around for someone to notice me. This is my chance to be myself and have people like me for it, without feeling like I have to act cool.
The first day of college, as exciting as I know it will be, scares the hell out of me. But I'm going to straighten my hair, put in my contacts, smile, and make friends right off the bat.
I've been watching WAY too much of The Office on DVD lately, especially season 3, so the concept of "Fancy New Beesley" is fresh in my mind. So the new Kari is stepping out, hopefully to a better experience than I had in high school. It has to be.
nervousJune 7th, 2009
Well, today's the day. Prom was Thursday night (I'll post pictures when I have time later, I promise), and today I graduate. As of (about) 3:15 PM, I will officially be an alumni.
The past four years seemed annoying to me at the time, and we couldn't wait until this day would come. We counted down the days until our last summer before college, excited at the prospect of not having to return to our obnoxious high school ever again. As the day finally presents itself, however, I find myself wanting to go back up to the choir room for warmups one more time, or rehearse for one more band concert, or hear my band director say "Happy Monday" for one more week.
I know we have to move on, and somewhere in the back of my mind, I'm ready. But right now, the future looks absolutely terrifying. But hey, we did it. Congrats, class of 2009.
Goodbye Blue and Gold, hello, Black and Gold. At 3:15, I will officially be a DePauw University Tiger.
The past four years seemed annoying to me at the time, and we couldn't wait until this day would come. We counted down the days until our last summer before college, excited at the prospect of not having to return to our obnoxious high school ever again. As the day finally presents itself, however, I find myself wanting to go back up to the choir room for warmups one more time, or rehearse for one more band concert, or hear my band director say "Happy Monday" for one more week.
I know we have to move on, and somewhere in the back of my mind, I'm ready. But right now, the future looks absolutely terrifying. But hey, we did it. Congrats, class of 2009.
Goodbye Blue and Gold, hello, Black and Gold. At 3:15, I will officially be a DePauw University Tiger.
June 4th, 2009
So, yesterday the theatre I auditioned for started calling people to notify them of their parts in one of the two summer shows. Both of my best friends got called for Beauty and the Beast (one as a Silly Girl and one as a Featured Dancer/Napkin), and by 9 last night I still hadn't heard anything. So I called my friend who's worked with them before, and apparently if they don't call, you didn't get in. At all. I'm kind of annoyed because I wish they would have had the courtesy to call and tell me that I didn't get in instead of having me wondering for eight hours. And this is going to sound really egotistical, which I don't mean it to be, but I saw the other auditions and there were very few people who weren't totally off-key or screaming their face off. So the fact that I didn't even get into the ensemble kind of offends me as a singer. It turns out I probably didn't have a shot at the roles I auditioned for, though, because the choreographer was cast as Belle, which just emphasizes how absolutely political it is. Whatever.
So now I guess I can go to Musical Theatre camp for the week at U of I, since there's no rehearsals for it to conflict with. And I'll probably play in pit orchestra for another show. I'll still go see my friends in Beauty and the Beast, but I doubt I'll audition for that company again.
On a happier note, prom is tonight! My friends are coming over for pictures before we go to school to leave. It's at Navy Pier, and then post prom is on the cruise at Navy Pier. We're having a sleepover after with a karaoke party at 5 AM. It will be epic. :D
So now I guess I can go to Musical Theatre camp for the week at U of I, since there's no rehearsals for it to conflict with. And I'll probably play in pit orchestra for another show. I'll still go see my friends in Beauty and the Beast, but I doubt I'll audition for that company again.
On a happier note, prom is tonight! My friends are coming over for pictures before we go to school to leave. It's at Navy Pier, and then post prom is on the cruise at Navy Pier. We're having a sleepover after with a karaoke party at 5 AM. It will be epic. :D
confusedJune 1st, 2009
Well, this is it. I just got home from my last day of high school, ever. All that's left is prom and graduation, and then I'm officially done. Most of the day was fine- my academic classes didn't mean all that much to me this semester- but saying goodbye to the music classes was so hard.
Walking out of the band room for the last time felt downright depressing, and it didn't feel like the end. I feel like I need more time. My band director has known me for 4 years, and after Sunday (he's reading names at graduation), he might never hear me play again. It feels wrong that I wasn't auditioning for section leader or getting ready for next year's wind ensemble. I'm finished, and the band doesn't need me anymore.
Choir, too, was really difficult. We all went around and said nice things about each other, and I was surprised and touched at the number of people who I'd never really even talked to that noticed how hard I was working in choir. I really appreciated it, and it was a great way to end. But when my choir director started talking and at the same time started to cry, I basically lost it. I wasn't going to humiliate myself in front of the entire choir and cry, but it was close to happening. I thanked my director for everything before I left, but there was so much more that I wish I could have said. It was hard to be articulate when I was worried about crying in the middle of the hallway, but she deserved a better thank you after basically getting me into college and believing in me even when I didn't. I'm going back on Wednesday to turn in some left over music, so hopefully I can say a better goodbye then.
It feels strange to know that after today, I won't walk through the halls anymore as a student. I won't ever attend a class, complain about gym volleyball, or perform on stage at a choir concert. It's over. I have to say goodbye to my school, my teachers, my friends, my epically huge band locker, and go on to a University where I know one other person from my high school. It's exciting, but at the same time, it's absolutely terrifying.
Goodbye, high school. It's been a pretty great 4 years. DePauw, here I come.
Walking out of the band room for the last time felt downright depressing, and it didn't feel like the end. I feel like I need more time. My band director has known me for 4 years, and after Sunday (he's reading names at graduation), he might never hear me play again. It feels wrong that I wasn't auditioning for section leader or getting ready for next year's wind ensemble. I'm finished, and the band doesn't need me anymore.
Choir, too, was really difficult. We all went around and said nice things about each other, and I was surprised and touched at the number of people who I'd never really even talked to that noticed how hard I was working in choir. I really appreciated it, and it was a great way to end. But when my choir director started talking and at the same time started to cry, I basically lost it. I wasn't going to humiliate myself in front of the entire choir and cry, but it was close to happening. I thanked my director for everything before I left, but there was so much more that I wish I could have said. It was hard to be articulate when I was worried about crying in the middle of the hallway, but she deserved a better thank you after basically getting me into college and believing in me even when I didn't. I'm going back on Wednesday to turn in some left over music, so hopefully I can say a better goodbye then.
It feels strange to know that after today, I won't walk through the halls anymore as a student. I won't ever attend a class, complain about gym volleyball, or perform on stage at a choir concert. It's over. I have to say goodbye to my school, my teachers, my friends, my epically huge band locker, and go on to a University where I know one other person from my high school. It's exciting, but at the same time, it's absolutely terrifying.
Goodbye, high school. It's been a pretty great 4 years. DePauw, here I come.
April 19th, 2009
So I fail at blogging every day. In case you hadn't noticed.
But I was at DePauw Friday night and yesterday for their admitted students open house in the attempt to make a decision, so I think I get excused for that one. And I did make a decision, sometime this afternoon, at a bridal shower. Because people kept asking, "Oh, where are you going in the fall?" and I was SO sick of saying, "Well, I'm not really sure yet, it's either..." and being all indecisive and unsure. So I just said it. "I'm going to DePauw. No, not DePauL, DePauW. With a W. The one in Indiana?"
And it felt good.
I don't know, I guess for the past few weeks I've felt like I owed it to myself to go to Illinois Wesleyan because for the past 2 years, I've been telling people that I was for sure going there if I got in. And I got in, and then...it just wasn't what I expected. On Saturday at DePauw, the second I walked in, the head of music came up to me and said, "Hi, Kari, great to see you!" She pronounced my name correctly, remembered my mom, and even knew that I specifically was interested in musical theatre. At IWU, it was like, "We have lots of applicants, so come or not. We don't really care."
I felt like I belonged at DePauw, and as much as I used to feel that way about IWU, I look at the beautiful music building at DePauw and think, "I CANNOT give this up." My mom described it as craving a hamburger for a whole week (I don't like burgers, but that's beside the point), and then when you go out to eat you see someone's chicken sandwich going by and suddenly you really want that. So you get the chicken sandwich and it's even better than you expected, so that burger doesn't matter anymore.
It's scary when I say now that I know where I'm going, because it makes all of this real. When that deposit goes in the mail tomorrow, it'll make it official. And I think it will be hard to check the decline box on the Illinois Wesleyan notification card. But I just need to remind myself that as great as IWU is, there's so much more in store for me at DePauw. I need to trust my instinct and remember how I felt at home during the open house. I just need to order the chicken sandwich and trust that it will surpass my wildest dreams.
Tomorrow, I will officially be a Tiger.
But I was at DePauw Friday night and yesterday for their admitted students open house in the attempt to make a decision, so I think I get excused for that one. And I did make a decision, sometime this afternoon, at a bridal shower. Because people kept asking, "Oh, where are you going in the fall?" and I was SO sick of saying, "Well, I'm not really sure yet, it's either..." and being all indecisive and unsure. So I just said it. "I'm going to DePauw. No, not DePauL, DePauW. With a W. The one in Indiana?"
And it felt good.
I don't know, I guess for the past few weeks I've felt like I owed it to myself to go to Illinois Wesleyan because for the past 2 years, I've been telling people that I was for sure going there if I got in. And I got in, and then...it just wasn't what I expected. On Saturday at DePauw, the second I walked in, the head of music came up to me and said, "Hi, Kari, great to see you!" She pronounced my name correctly, remembered my mom, and even knew that I specifically was interested in musical theatre. At IWU, it was like, "We have lots of applicants, so come or not. We don't really care."
I felt like I belonged at DePauw, and as much as I used to feel that way about IWU, I look at the beautiful music building at DePauw and think, "I CANNOT give this up." My mom described it as craving a hamburger for a whole week (I don't like burgers, but that's beside the point), and then when you go out to eat you see someone's chicken sandwich going by and suddenly you really want that. So you get the chicken sandwich and it's even better than you expected, so that burger doesn't matter anymore.
It's scary when I say now that I know where I'm going, because it makes all of this real. When that deposit goes in the mail tomorrow, it'll make it official. And I think it will be hard to check the decline box on the Illinois Wesleyan notification card. But I just need to remind myself that as great as IWU is, there's so much more in store for me at DePauw. I need to trust my instinct and remember how I felt at home during the open house. I just need to order the chicken sandwich and trust that it will surpass my wildest dreams.
Tomorrow, I will officially be a Tiger.
April 15th, 2009
I've come to the conclusion that I cannot decide. I made epic pro-con lists, had my dog pick one of 2 slips of paper with the colleges written on it, and explored the websites so much I practically have them memorized. I cannot choose. Seriously. Help.
I feel so overwhelmed, and I feel like if I make a choice, I could go there and totally regret it. Like, I love DePauw and there music program is incomparable, but I've been telling everyone (and myself) that I would go to Illinois Wesleyan for undergrad up until a few months ago, when everything started changing. I don't know. I mean, I got the acceptance letter, I got what I wanted, but I don't know if I want anymore.
People are telling me to just follow my heart, regardless of the fact that IWU is more expensive, but I can't even do that because I don't KNOW what's in my heart. I honestly have no idea where I feel more comfortable at. IWU's location is a huge draw because it's in an actual college town and is accessible by a 2 hour train ride, 1 1/2 hour car ride. But DePauw, although it's geographically totally undesirable, the campus is great, the people are really friendly, and they have a great music program. But I can't evaluate the involvement with theatre that's in the voice department, like how much opera I'd be forced to do, and how much emphasis I could put on musical theatre. GAH. This is so stressful. I just need to sleep on it.
I decided that included in these blogs, I'm going to suggest songs or youtube videos or articles for you guys to look at that I found cool each day. Today I decided to recommend some songs you should all listen to- youtube them, you won't be sorry:
"I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)" by The Proclaimers
Anything on Sutton Foster's CD Wish, especially "Flight", "My Heart Was Set on You", and "On My Way"
"Where I Stood" by Missy Higgins
"Falling in Love With You" by Josh Kelley
"I'd Rather Be With You" by Joshua Radin
"Better Together" by Jack Johnson
"Let the Sunshine in" from Hair
"Unexpressed" by Gavin Creel
Enjoy listening and please, comment with college guidance. :D
frustratedApril 14th, 2009
So I have a late arrival tomorrow, which means SLEEP. Which I so desperately need. I have so much to do this weekend and next week, including:
Wearing my contacts
Getting my retainer re-fitted
Cleaning my saddle
Bio 2nd semester reading notes
English 18-page short story with works cited
Packing for choir tour
Choir Concert
Band Concert
Orchestra Concert
Choir Tour
PICKING A COLLEGE!
Phew. But with all of this stuff, I'm still finding room to do other things. I had riding tonight, which was fun. I was on King, who used to be a racehorse (Not a very good one, but still), and he's such a spaz. He's afraid of the back door and falls on jumps and flips out for no reason, but I love him even though he's a dork. He's still adorable, even if he makes my life flash before my eyes when he decides not to take jumps. :D
Also, I kind of really want to see the Broadway revival of West Side Story. I hadn't heard good reviews, but I watched "America" on Letterman and Dancing With the Stars and I think it looked really good. Maybe it's because I just really like that song, especially the dance break orchestrations. If I were to take a trip to New York right now in my fantasy world, in which my best friend and I have unlimited expenses and ignore that inconvenient commitment called school, this is what we would have to see:
West Side Story
Hair (Again. I would see it a million times, I swear.)
Billy Elliot (Again, see above parentheses).
9 to 5 (Looks SO good, and I missed it by 2 weeks when I was in New York!
Then we could stage door Guys and Dolls to meet Lauren Graham, because I love her, but I really don't want to see the show again.
Sigh. If only. I really need to pick a college by like, Friday. Help me? This decision is WAY too hard for a person as indecisive as me.
Wearing my contacts
Getting my retainer re-fitted
Cleaning my saddle
Bio 2nd semester reading notes
English 18-page short story with works cited
Packing for choir tour
Choir Concert
Band Concert
Orchestra Concert
Choir Tour
PICKING A COLLEGE!
Phew. But with all of this stuff, I'm still finding room to do other things. I had riding tonight, which was fun. I was on King, who used to be a racehorse (Not a very good one, but still), and he's such a spaz. He's afraid of the back door and falls on jumps and flips out for no reason, but I love him even though he's a dork. He's still adorable, even if he makes my life flash before my eyes when he decides not to take jumps. :D
Also, I kind of really want to see the Broadway revival of West Side Story. I hadn't heard good reviews, but I watched "America" on Letterman and Dancing With the Stars and I think it looked really good. Maybe it's because I just really like that song, especially the dance break orchestrations. If I were to take a trip to New York right now in my fantasy world, in which my best friend and I have unlimited expenses and ignore that inconvenient commitment called school, this is what we would have to see:
West Side Story
Hair (Again. I would see it a million times, I swear.)
Billy Elliot (Again, see above parentheses).
9 to 5 (Looks SO good, and I missed it by 2 weeks when I was in New York!
Then we could stage door Guys and Dolls to meet Lauren Graham, because I love her, but I really don't want to see the show again.
Sigh. If only. I really need to pick a college by like, Friday. Help me? This decision is WAY too hard for a person as indecisive as me.
stressedApril 12th, 2009
I'm already failing at blogging every day. I forgot yesterday, because I went to see Sunshine Cleaning last night. I really liked it, although it was more dramatic than I expected. As usual, Amy Adams was hilarious and heartbreaking at the same time.
Happy Easter, by the way. I spent some time pushing my neice on the swings and eating cookies, which was nice even though it was cold (why did I wear a skirt, again?). I'm so not ready to go back to school. I stayed home sick Wednesday and Thursday and we had no school Friday, so it's been 5 days. I haven't done any English homework yet (because honestly, this assignment is ridiculous and pointless), so I need to force myself to get off of the internet and do that. I'm supposed to take a bio test tomorrow, but I'm nowhere near ready, so I'm going to take it Tuesday. Yay extra studying...
Although with the bitter cold starting to get a little better, I'm getting more senioritis and more excited about summer. I don't have a lot planned, really, but it'll be nice to just be...done. To not have to worry about school and work and college decisions anymore. I still don't know where I'm going, but I'm leaning towards DePauw. All I know that I'm doing is musical theatre camp at U of I again, which will be fun. And I think I'm going down a few hours south of here to my grandma's friends' farm, because they have horses. I'll probably help out around the barn for a few days and get to go on trail rides and stuff, which I've always wanted to do.
I'm also kind of nervous for summer, though, because it means saying goodbye to my friends and not being able to look forward to marching band camp or the halftime shows. It means starting over at college, not knowing anyone, rooming with a stranger. It's terrifying, but also kind of nice, because I can be who I am without anyone knowing who I used to be.
I'll get better at remembering to blog, I promise. Have a good Easter, everybody. :D
Happy Easter, by the way. I spent some time pushing my neice on the swings and eating cookies, which was nice even though it was cold (why did I wear a skirt, again?). I'm so not ready to go back to school. I stayed home sick Wednesday and Thursday and we had no school Friday, so it's been 5 days. I haven't done any English homework yet (because honestly, this assignment is ridiculous and pointless), so I need to force myself to get off of the internet and do that. I'm supposed to take a bio test tomorrow, but I'm nowhere near ready, so I'm going to take it Tuesday. Yay extra studying...
Although with the bitter cold starting to get a little better, I'm getting more senioritis and more excited about summer. I don't have a lot planned, really, but it'll be nice to just be...done. To not have to worry about school and work and college decisions anymore. I still don't know where I'm going, but I'm leaning towards DePauw. All I know that I'm doing is musical theatre camp at U of I again, which will be fun. And I think I'm going down a few hours south of here to my grandma's friends' farm, because they have horses. I'll probably help out around the barn for a few days and get to go on trail rides and stuff, which I've always wanted to do.
I'm also kind of nervous for summer, though, because it means saying goodbye to my friends and not being able to look forward to marching band camp or the halftime shows. It means starting over at college, not knowing anyone, rooming with a stranger. It's terrifying, but also kind of nice, because I can be who I am without anyone knowing who I used to be.
I'll get better at remembering to blog, I promise. Have a good Easter, everybody. :D
April 9th, 2009
Not much happened today. I stayed home again, which means I have tons of biology to catch up on and won't be able to take Monday's test, but I still have to study over the weekend. Ugh.
I spent some time today looking online for prom dresses, which for some reason inspired me to sketch some of my own. Now, I have absolutely no artistic talent whatsoever (I seriously almost got a B in sophomore year Drawing and Painting), so it wasn't very productive. I drew out three dresses, two in the colors I'm considering (Pink or green) and one blue one that I just thought was pretty. Then I decided to draw out a costume set for a musical, because I'm thinking about taking a costuming class as an eective in college and wanted to see if I could even begin to draw out costumes. I decided to do a set of Elle Woods costumes from Legally Blonde the musical, so I sketched out her first dress (the white one), the "Positive" outfit, the Act 1 Finale outfit (drawing houndstooth print is impossible, so I changed it to diamonds), and the finale suit. It was really hard to draw and they didn't come out very well, but it was still fun and better than watching reruns of CSI: Miami on A & E for 2 hours. If I find a way to scan it, I'll post it another day and you guys can tell me what you think. :D
But back to prom dresses. Like I said, I want either pink or green, and I definitely want it to be long. But style-wise, I'm not sure. Here's some that I was looking at:
( Links to dresses... )
April 8th, 2009
So there's this thing going around the internet right now, started by author Maureen Johnson, called Blog Every Day April. Where you, obviously, blog every day in April. I'm starting about a week late, but I think it's something that I should do. Because it's relatively simple, and I think that writing is very theraputic, especially when I have a lot going on.
Today is a good day to start, since I'm spending my time on my couch with kleenex, tylenol, and lots of DVDs. The evil sinus infection of doom has returned, so I'm staying home, giving me plenty of time to write and sleep, two things I never have time for otherwise.
I've come to the realization that I only have 34 school days left. 33, if you don't count today. That's ultimately terrifying and exciting at the same time, and while there's a lot of fun things coming up for the end of the year, I still don't know where I'm going to college. Illinois Wesleyan still hasn't sent my acceptance letter with financial aid info, which I need to help me decide between it and DePauw. I don't even know what to do at this point except wait, and life is crazy enough with studying for AP Bio and waiting on the grade for my huge English paper from third quarter.
Hopefully I'll decide soon, and then I can actually enjoy the end of senior year. There's no way anyone's going to ask me to prom, but that's a whole other story.
So I challenge you to blog every day in April, too. There's always something to talk about.
:D
Today is a good day to start, since I'm spending my time on my couch with kleenex, tylenol, and lots of DVDs. The evil sinus infection of doom has returned, so I'm staying home, giving me plenty of time to write and sleep, two things I never have time for otherwise.
I've come to the realization that I only have 34 school days left. 33, if you don't count today. That's ultimately terrifying and exciting at the same time, and while there's a lot of fun things coming up for the end of the year, I still don't know where I'm going to college. Illinois Wesleyan still hasn't sent my acceptance letter with financial aid info, which I need to help me decide between it and DePauw. I don't even know what to do at this point except wait, and life is crazy enough with studying for AP Bio and waiting on the grade for my huge English paper from third quarter.
Hopefully I'll decide soon, and then I can actually enjoy the end of senior year. There's no way anyone's going to ask me to prom, but that's a whole other story.
So I challenge you to blog every day in April, too. There's always something to talk about.
:D
March 19th, 2009
So I still exist, despite what my lifeless journal implies. :D
Life has been...crazy, to say the least. College auditions ended a few weeks ago and I'm waiting on one more decision. It's actually the school that was my first choice at the start, but once I auditioned I had this epiphany that I really should be a music major with a theatre minor rather than a musical theatre BFA. The thing I love most about theatre is musicals, and there's more straight theatre than anything in a musical theatre degree. So basically, I'm almost decided as to where I'm going to go, but I won't say anything until I know for sure. :D
Spring break starts tomorrow (well, that's the last full day of school, which I'm missing), and I'm leaving tonight for NEW YORK! YAY! My mom decided we were taking the train, which I'm not thrilled with because I'm impatient with travel, but we leave tonight and get to NY at 7 PM tomorrow. Yep, a 20 hour train ride. I'm going to need a LOT of DVDs.
Saturday I have a voice lesson at Liz Caplan's studio again, which is awesome! Then we're seeing the Sat. matinee of Hair and the PM show of Guys and Dolls (WITH LAUREN GRAHAM. I am SO stage dooring this one). Sunday we're taking one of those tours of NY, since we really haven't ever been out of Times Square, and we're seeing the Billy Elliot matinee. Monday I'm visiting Fordham, where I probably won't go just because of cost (and they don't have a music performance degree, so...yeah), then seeing the night show of Chicago. Monday afternoon we're going to see NBC studios, too, where SNL and 30 Rock are filmed. Cool!
So I'm excited. And we get back Wednesday, which means that I still get a few days of honest to goodness break, with sleep and wearing pajamas all day and trying to clean my room before 4th quarter starts.
So I'll see you all on Wednesday night with pictures and updates from the trip! Have a nice break for those of you on one and if you're not, at least try to enjoy the nice weather (if it's nice where you are. :D)
Life has been...crazy, to say the least. College auditions ended a few weeks ago and I'm waiting on one more decision. It's actually the school that was my first choice at the start, but once I auditioned I had this epiphany that I really should be a music major with a theatre minor rather than a musical theatre BFA. The thing I love most about theatre is musicals, and there's more straight theatre than anything in a musical theatre degree. So basically, I'm almost decided as to where I'm going to go, but I won't say anything until I know for sure. :D
Spring break starts tomorrow (well, that's the last full day of school, which I'm missing), and I'm leaving tonight for NEW YORK! YAY! My mom decided we were taking the train, which I'm not thrilled with because I'm impatient with travel, but we leave tonight and get to NY at 7 PM tomorrow. Yep, a 20 hour train ride. I'm going to need a LOT of DVDs.
Saturday I have a voice lesson at Liz Caplan's studio again, which is awesome! Then we're seeing the Sat. matinee of Hair and the PM show of Guys and Dolls (WITH LAUREN GRAHAM. I am SO stage dooring this one). Sunday we're taking one of those tours of NY, since we really haven't ever been out of Times Square, and we're seeing the Billy Elliot matinee. Monday I'm visiting Fordham, where I probably won't go just because of cost (and they don't have a music performance degree, so...yeah), then seeing the night show of Chicago. Monday afternoon we're going to see NBC studios, too, where SNL and 30 Rock are filmed. Cool!
So I'm excited. And we get back Wednesday, which means that I still get a few days of honest to goodness break, with sleep and wearing pajamas all day and trying to clean my room before 4th quarter starts.
So I'll see you all on Wednesday night with pictures and updates from the trip! Have a nice break for those of you on one and if you're not, at least try to enjoy the nice weather (if it's nice where you are. :D)
February 1st, 2009
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You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.<br />
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.<br />
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.<br />
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You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. <br />
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. <br />
You have the classic "Type A" personality.<br />
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You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.<br />
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.<br />
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.<br />
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You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.<br />
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.<br />
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.<br />
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You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.<br />
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.<br />
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.<br />
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You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.<br />
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.<br />
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.<br />
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You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.<br />
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.<br />
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.<br />
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You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.<br />
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.<br />
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.<br />
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You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.<br />
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.<br />
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
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January 25th, 2009
Well, it's over. Let me tell you, the energy in the Oriental Theatre at 2 PM today was like nothing I've ever experienced. The audience (including me, I have to admit) went wild at every entrance, including when the ensemble first appeared for "No One Mourns the Wicked", when Annaleigh Ashford came down in her bubble, and especially when Dee Roscioli entered as Elphaba in the first Shiz scene. I have never felt such complete gratitude from an audience that I was a part of, and every set of applause was a big "thank you" to the cast and crew for bringing such a wonderful show to us for 3 1/2 amazing years.
The show was especially good today, and of course, everyone was completely on. The vocals were AMAZING, and those one-liners were funnier than ever. Annaleigh's splits during "Popular" had us laughing and applauding for a good minute, and she kept the hilarity up for the rest of the show. Dee Roscioli's "Defying Gravity" was the best vocal I've heard from her. The first time I saw her in the role was directly on the heels of Kristy Cates' exit, so of course it didn't compare. But she has improved GREATLY since then, and I thought she did a wonderful job today. Intermission basically consisted of me talking to the people around me about how many times we'd seen the show and how devastated we are about it ending. Throughout the second act, the fact that it was almost over was looming over our heads, and the second the introduction to "For Good" began, the tears started coming. For those of you who know me well, I am NOT a cryer by any means. But my vision was blurred during the whole number as I tried not to embarrass myself in front of the man next to me, only to find out that he, too, was crying. Kleenex was passed and sniffles were heard through the whole song, and of course the applause lasted forever. I, being the fangirl I am, cried through from "For Good" until the end of the curtain call, and the strangers on Randolph after I left the theatre gave me crazy stares as I cried down the sidewalk. The curtain speech itself was done by Joe Mantello, the director, who announced the three members of the cast who have been there from the start (Heidi, Gene and Kristoffer). It was a great speech, and I ran out the second it ended to secure a spot at the stage door.
My Lord, the stage door. It was CRAZY. There were at least a hundred people, but my awesome mom had saved me a spot right by the door. There was a camera guy from CLTV interviewing people, but I was still such a wreck that I said something stupid. :D The autographs started out with lots of ensemble members coming out and saying, "Oh my God, this is crazy!" and being overwhelmed by the number of people waiting. They signed playbills and took pictures. Kristoffer Cusick was the first principle out, and I of course told him how great I think he is and took a picture with him. Heidi Kettenring was next, and she was SO nice as always. She's always so appreciative of the fans, and she was happy to take pictures with everyone. Then there was a long string of orchestra members (who we applauded for because they're just amazing and underrated) and other ensemble members. We all wanted to see Dee and Annaleigh, of course, and after they still weren't coming we started bonding over how freaking cold it was and how much we love Wicked and other shows, and we also bonded with the Stage Door Guy, who was also freezing and kept trying to get them to come out faster. I made a nice little stagedoor family as my feet, fingers, and nose went numb (Shoutout to Andrew, Gianna, Victoria, and everyone else I met!). A crew started rolling out coatracks of costumes, which made us all sad, and we touched Annaleigh's bubble dress, Dee's Defying Gravity dress, and the Witchhunter Ensemble outfits without the crew noticing and yelling at us. :D
Two hours after we got to the stage door, after doing tap dances to stay warm, Annaleigh and Dee walked out. We cheered, uncapped our markers- and watched as they were pulled to the end of the line, where the people who just showed up were waiting. We were SO mad, but our Stage Door Guy told us not to worry, that he would make sure we saw them after we waited all that time. Some people even got pictures with the Stage Door Guy! Finally, Annaleigh and Dee made their way to my part of the line. Dee was first, and I told her that I thought she did a great job, and while Dee signed someone else's things, Annaleigh came over. I, of course, turned into an embarassing fangirl and said that I thought she was fantastic and one of my musical theatre role models. She replied by saying that she thought that was really sweet and thanked me for coming like the super nice person she is, and then she and Dee both posed for a picture with me and Annaleigh said that it was nice to meet me and she was glad that I came. My mom and I finally made it to our car, where we regained function in our limbs, and I looked at the green Oriental Theatre marquee for the last time.
Overall, a great afternoon and evening. Thank you Wicked Chicago cast, crew, orchestra, ushers, people who sell T-shirts, everybody. Thank you for being an inspiration, thank you for giving me some of the best memories of my life, and thank you for coming out in 10 degree weather to make sure every single person got a picture with you. The past 3 1/2 years have been amazing. Wicked will be missed, and as cheesy as it sounds, I truly have been "changed for good".
The show was especially good today, and of course, everyone was completely on. The vocals were AMAZING, and those one-liners were funnier than ever. Annaleigh's splits during "Popular" had us laughing and applauding for a good minute, and she kept the hilarity up for the rest of the show. Dee Roscioli's "Defying Gravity" was the best vocal I've heard from her. The first time I saw her in the role was directly on the heels of Kristy Cates' exit, so of course it didn't compare. But she has improved GREATLY since then, and I thought she did a wonderful job today. Intermission basically consisted of me talking to the people around me about how many times we'd seen the show and how devastated we are about it ending. Throughout the second act, the fact that it was almost over was looming over our heads, and the second the introduction to "For Good" began, the tears started coming. For those of you who know me well, I am NOT a cryer by any means. But my vision was blurred during the whole number as I tried not to embarrass myself in front of the man next to me, only to find out that he, too, was crying. Kleenex was passed and sniffles were heard through the whole song, and of course the applause lasted forever. I, being the fangirl I am, cried through from "For Good" until the end of the curtain call, and the strangers on Randolph after I left the theatre gave me crazy stares as I cried down the sidewalk. The curtain speech itself was done by Joe Mantello, the director, who announced the three members of the cast who have been there from the start (Heidi, Gene and Kristoffer). It was a great speech, and I ran out the second it ended to secure a spot at the stage door.
My Lord, the stage door. It was CRAZY. There were at least a hundred people, but my awesome mom had saved me a spot right by the door. There was a camera guy from CLTV interviewing people, but I was still such a wreck that I said something stupid. :D The autographs started out with lots of ensemble members coming out and saying, "Oh my God, this is crazy!" and being overwhelmed by the number of people waiting. They signed playbills and took pictures. Kristoffer Cusick was the first principle out, and I of course told him how great I think he is and took a picture with him. Heidi Kettenring was next, and she was SO nice as always. She's always so appreciative of the fans, and she was happy to take pictures with everyone. Then there was a long string of orchestra members (who we applauded for because they're just amazing and underrated) and other ensemble members. We all wanted to see Dee and Annaleigh, of course, and after they still weren't coming we started bonding over how freaking cold it was and how much we love Wicked and other shows, and we also bonded with the Stage Door Guy, who was also freezing and kept trying to get them to come out faster. I made a nice little stagedoor family as my feet, fingers, and nose went numb (Shoutout to Andrew, Gianna, Victoria, and everyone else I met!). A crew started rolling out coatracks of costumes, which made us all sad, and we touched Annaleigh's bubble dress, Dee's Defying Gravity dress, and the Witchhunter Ensemble outfits without the crew noticing and yelling at us. :D
Two hours after we got to the stage door, after doing tap dances to stay warm, Annaleigh and Dee walked out. We cheered, uncapped our markers- and watched as they were pulled to the end of the line, where the people who just showed up were waiting. We were SO mad, but our Stage Door Guy told us not to worry, that he would make sure we saw them after we waited all that time. Some people even got pictures with the Stage Door Guy! Finally, Annaleigh and Dee made their way to my part of the line. Dee was first, and I told her that I thought she did a great job, and while Dee signed someone else's things, Annaleigh came over. I, of course, turned into an embarassing fangirl and said that I thought she was fantastic and one of my musical theatre role models. She replied by saying that she thought that was really sweet and thanked me for coming like the super nice person she is, and then she and Dee both posed for a picture with me and Annaleigh said that it was nice to meet me and she was glad that I came. My mom and I finally made it to our car, where we regained function in our limbs, and I looked at the green Oriental Theatre marquee for the last time.
Overall, a great afternoon and evening. Thank you Wicked Chicago cast, crew, orchestra, ushers, people who sell T-shirts, everybody. Thank you for being an inspiration, thank you for giving me some of the best memories of my life, and thank you for coming out in 10 degree weather to make sure every single person got a picture with you. The past 3 1/2 years have been amazing. Wicked will be missed, and as cheesy as it sounds, I truly have been "changed for good".